"Homesick" by Mercy Me

Throughout the past 3 months, the way that I have "survived" and dealt with my grief of Dad's passing has been to force myself to remember the good things, to be thankful for the times I did have with Dad and to always tell myself, "Even though I can't see him, he's still here in some form, listening, agreeing, laughing along with us."

I also admit that sometimes I have even forced myself to STOP thinking about things simply because I know that if I continue, I will be a mess and not much use to anyone. Of course I have my moments of sadness, and of course I miss my Dad and of course it hurts, physically hurts in my heart, at times, but I guess as they say, to each his own.

So anyway, in light of all that, I wanted to share this song I heard on the radio a few days ago, not to pour salt on anyone's wounds, but just because I think my Dad deserves to have the words to this song posted on his site. It's a song that I have known for a long time but only recently heard again and that time, it took on a whole different meaning.

"Homesick" by Mercy Me

You're in a better place, I've heard a thousand times,
And at least a thousand times I've rejoiced for you.
But the reason why I'm broken, the reason why I cry
Is how long must I wait to be with you?

I close my eyes and I see your face,
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place.
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow.
I've never been more homesick than now.

Help me Lord cause I don't understand your ways,
The reason why I wonder if I'll ever know.
But, even if you showed me, the hurt would be the same,
Cause I'm still here so far away from home.

I close my eyes and I see your face,
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place.
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow.
I've never been more homesick than now.

In Christ, there are no goodbyes,
And in Christ, there is no end.
So I'll hold onto Jesus with all that I have,
To see you again,
To see you again.

And I close my eyes and I see your face,
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place.
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow,
Won't you give me strength to make it through somehow,
Won't you give me strength to make it through somehow,
I've never been more homesick than now.

Missing you Daddy. Can't wait to see you again one day, I really can't.
-Alisa